About A Kintsukuroi Life:
Recovering from an eating disorder is not an easy task. You have to break yourself down to rebuild in a stronger, eating disorder (ED) free way. You have to be willing to give up all that you knew and lived by to rediscover life. And it hurts.
Kintsukuroi, also known as kintsugi, is a Japanese practice of fixing broken pottery with lacquer mixed with gold. Instead of throwing away the pieces, the work is rejoined in a more beautiful, unique way. It relates back to the Japanese philosophy of wabi-sabi, or a world view believing in transience and imperfection.
While I do not yet see my journey as a beautiful work of art, I am working towards it. Here I chronicle that view-point progression and my personal journey in eating disorder recovery.
About the blogger:
My name is Lexi Haines and I am 20 years old. I’m *technically* supposed to be a junior in college, but I took a break from my studies to work on regaining my life and transitioning into a solid recovery. I started college again not too long ago, and I forgot how stressful that can be! But not to worry, I am a HUGE dog lover and will stop just about anything to give a willing pupper some pats. I love photography, reading, art, my aromatherapy, and I think I am addicted to Candy Crush.
I’ve only recently been comfortable with sharing my story. I realized that by keeping it in, I was only validating the shame I felt about it. Therefore, I screamed it to the world… just kidding, I posted on Instagram and was a lot more vocal about what recovery ACTUALLY involves. And that is exactly what I want to do here (and maybe just write because it’s therapeutic too…).
Feel free to contact me (in the contact tab of the site) if you have any questions or comments!